Psalms 3

I will blog about today's Bible Study cos I think it is very appropriate.

The background: I did something I shouldn't and I'm begining to scare myself.

Million Dollar question as asked by Darren: What keeps you awake at night?
We all agreed it is extreme emotions that keep us awake.

So yeah, I did something stupid and I'm feeling guilty about it. And I shouldn't even bother about it. Cos I'm just an idiot...

No I'm not an idiot, stop it devil. I'm a child of God. Do not attack my confidence and say that God will not deliever me; and do not stop me from shining as a beacon unto others. My sinful human nature tears me apart. But I will not give in. The Lord will guide me!

So yeah, I'm emoing and nobody actually realises the tears behind the smiles. and I'm openly writing this on my blog to see who actually will notice my blog and who actually notices. When someone emos, everybody will rush to one's side and superficially comfort them. No I do not need comfort, I need support and company. I'm almost doubting who I can even trust and I'm becoming paranoid.

*My real friends will stand by me through this. But does that mean those filtered out, who aren't my real friends are enemies? What do they say behind my back?*

There goes my confidence again. Snap out of it gal.

How are we coping with anxiety and how do/can we cope?
Read versus 3-6 of Psalms. The real foes are insecurities attacking our relationshop with God & not the personal grudge we have of other people.

What have I learnt?
God will always be there for us; as in seriously, if he chosen us, he will never forsake us. So he will deliever me from my sinful nature. God is the real friend that I have been looking for but he has actually been there for me the whole time.


Prayer requests:
I pray for all the lonely poor wretched souls in the world who have yet to feel God's love and has been tormenting and emotionally blackmailing people around them due to that emptiness. I also pray for the wisdom to deal with challenges in the world. And the discipline to get off fb or even the internet.

AND... The bible said, if a part of my body causes me to sin, cut it off; and since my addiction to the internet and connection to fb hence caused to me to be inappropriate, sin and be distracted, I WILL cut it off. In order to control myself, I have decided to cut myself off from the internet when I'm doing work. Most importantly, cut off from fb. So LAN cable, off u go after I post this up. Devil and sinful flesh u will not prevail.

Ok now back to Language Acquisition and Development.