My God is greater, My God is overall

I'm sleepy and tired, mentally, spiritually and physically. BUT I have to say this. MY GOD REIGNS!

Today, I realised how fallen the world is and how we need GOD even more. And I saw a few things over twitter and fb that made me realise even more how Godless this world is and how much Christians struggle more in terms of spirituality sinfu we are more aware of the sinful world and our sinful flesh.

Most importantly, I realised how easily I freaked out over ghost stories and what not. I am truly weak and I need to realise that God is still king. With all my heart.

Digital Story - These Four Walls

The following was what I posted up on my academic group's discussion board. This is reposted over here, about 4 weeks after the post on the discussion board. & I was the only one... ... whao... ... I think I just spoiled the market.

This is the video I have selected. I do not know if this is considered a digital story or what, but I find myself being very attracted to this video that I just had to talk about it.

These Four Walls:







The words that appear in the beginning of the video:
"I once
had a dream

where my world
was bigger than
these four walls. "

This "story" is about a white pinwheel growing out of its pot and going around places and exploring, most of the time by itself. In my opinion, it "does" the things that people do not dare to do, like "eating" ice-cream and "riding" on a carousel alone and even taking a train by itself. So it does not just go beyond the four walls of its house but also going moving beyond the mental walls that prevent one from seeing the world outside and experiencing it.

To be honest, I'm very biased towards this video because firstly I love this group of youtubers(WongFu Productions), and secondly, I simply love this video because it is so inspirational and the music and visuals are fantastic. So I find it difficult to find anything to change about this video.

But as a fan(pun not intended), I find that the description is not enough and find myself wanting more of the description to supplement the video. I feel that if there was more explanation(even in the director's comment video) or description given, it will make the video more poignant. However at the same time, I feel that the part of the beauty of this video is in the fact that it does not say a lot and the directors themselves leave things up for interpretation. Also as a literature student, I guess that is how I am taught to look at text: to see an entity with a voice for a certain purpose for existence and style. So I feel that changing any bit of a text, will change the text's identity, style and purpose, and it will be a different thing altogether.

Last but not lest, this video definitely did educate me a bit about getting out of my comfort zone and inspired me to do things out of my comfort zone. Such inspiration includes pushing me to be the the first person to post something on blackboard when there is no time limit or marks given, something I would not normally do or have the gall to do.(hey, don't blame me, it's just the way I was socialised into, you know the Singaporean Culture right?).

I hope you all get inspired by the video too. Cheers and God Bless.

University names can make us go NUTS.

Last night while I was brushing my teeth, I ROFL-ed so hard I nearly swallowed the toothpaste foam. I heard on Parliament Tonight that the new university will be called Singapore University of Technology and Design (SUTD). Pronounce SUTD & you will laugh along too.

While my dad & I were laughing together, he reminded me of the older name of NTU. He said Nanyang Technological University(NTU) used to be Nanyang University of Technology of Singapore(NUTS). We ROFL-ed even more. As if NUT was not enough, the adding of Singapore behind the name made it NUTS. My mum overheard us and added thereafter saying that SUTD sounds like STD when said wrongly or fast enough. My friend noted it too when I twitted it. My parents and I had ball (pun intended or not, up to u) of a time laughing at the university names.

Come to think of it, only NUS has a more appropriate name change, Malaya(n)? University, MU became NUS. I heard Singapore Management University, SMU nearly became SUM(which says a lot about the university specialising in business).

Honestly, I would rather NTU be called Nan Da if this was the case. I would rather sound cheena than crazy.

Education Against Trolls

Yes I plan to do that... Recent events have led me to do something I consider by my own standards, drastic: a public blogging article and if I have time on my hands, a video of Education Against Trolls (EAT). I have came to realised that I have been feeding a troll on my fb... Yes my dear friends who know me well enough, you know who is it. I wonder if he knows that he is trolling. So yes, I'm gonna do my research and article now.

Coming Soon... ...

AKAN DATANG

Reflections

What stops me from knowing God and even lettings him into my life to deal with my pain is the guilt and shame that I have. Sometimes, I am even aware that I am avoiding God because letting him deal with it would mean confronting the situation. Having said that, there are alot of things in my life that I need to be freed from and alot of hurt and pain; so it's really not an easy thing just thinking about it.

To make things easier for me, God knowing how indecisive and inconfident I am has helped me deal with decisions and situations. And God being God has been patienty waiting at the opportune moment for me to deal with all this issues in my life. One things for sure, I'm glad that he is always there for me and is someone I can always talk to regardless of situations.

Happy Lunar New Year! But... ... Do I need to worry about the pagan practices?

It's the year of the Metal Rabbit! Happy Lunar New Year everyone! To everyone in the world be it Chinese, Malays, Koreans, Japs, Indians, Viets, Indons, English, French, etc...!*PEACE*

So here I am on the computer during Lunar New Year(or Chinese New Year or CNY in short in Singapore, the land of abbreviations) and I feel like a complete loser because I'm on the COMPUTER at HOME on CNY HOLIDAY! But still, I did have a quality conversation with my mum about the Bible and find out a few things about my own family.

1st: MY BROTHER ACTUALLY BELIEVES THAT LILITH IS REAL! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE CHRISTIAN UPBRINGING?! And to think he is a literature student. He cannot identify that Genesis is not really in chronological order and he converted to another religion. *pause here* What religion is it? Catholicism. BUT I THOUGHT IT'S THE SAME?! No it's not. While Catholics believe that apart from Jesus, there is other ways to talk to God, such as Mary and the Pope. How do I know it's wrong? Jesus said "I am the Way, the Truth and the Life; no one comes to the father except through me"(John 14:6) and fundamentally, Christians believe that. NOW THAT IS THE DIFFERENCE! For my brother to overlook this truth and believe in everything and doubting the Bible, his corruption is more serious than I though. I must seriously pray for him, this debate can go on and on but if I continue, the point will be lost.

*Note: The book of Genesis was written by Moses, inspired or some say dictated by God to crash the other creation myths circulating amongst the Jews that undermined the sovereignty of God.*

2nd: My mom was pre-occupied with the fact that she ate food offered to pagan gods during the time my grandma was alive; though she says that she is not bothered, I can sense the need to validate herself and the worry in the undertones of her words. To clear things up, I told her that what happens is the heart and the spirit of wanting to please God, furthermore, she really did wanted to show the graciousness of God through her living of her life in the past before she got jaded with/by my relatives. I remember my youth director telling me that it is fine to go through the Buddhist rituals because I am respecting my grandma and her last wish which is what the Lord our God wants us to do: Honour our parents(or grandparents for that matter). As long as we do not believe that the rituals or the breaking of it will have any effect on us and that God is still the Lord with Jesus as the only Saviour/way to God, I'm still a Child of God. But of course if you do not do go through the pagan practices, it's even better, devoted your time and mind to the Lord through other ways.

So that's about it, I only believe in the aspect of Feng Shui being a good practical way to optimise the space in the room will keeping it save and wholly practical in functionally of arrangements and economical.

Without further ado, Adieu! Shalom, may the peace and blessings of the Lord be with you.

After 1 month and an eternity

On a day like this 1 month ago, my grandma passed away. Well, I can't say for sure that she is in a better place, because according to my believe, she is in hell for all eternity for not believing in God. That's my reality that I know and it's hurting me to know that I couldn't do much when she was alive. oh well, she is gone now and she now haunts my dreams, literally. This blog post is to commemorate her death anniversary for one month.

The reality of heaven and hell for all eternity has hit me within one month and it has made me realise how much I really want my family and friends to be saved. I want to see them in heaven. (As I'm typing this, my niece is somewhere dancing while I play Jai Ho on the mac for her to dance to. Ironically, "Jai Ho" means "long live" in Hindi) I have not much to say now except that I should now help the living and not brood over the dead. And that means taking care of my family and do what a disciple of God should do (preach the good news).

I can't say much about my grandma because I really didn't talk to her during her last days due to a family feud. Details shall not be revealed for the sake of privacy and propriety. Nonetheless, before the family feud, I enjoyed being with my grandma. She was the only grandparent I knew. and yes I really got nothing more constructive to say, and I better sign off now before I get bitchy over my relatives and say or even think like a Christian shouldn't.

Grandma if you can see this, I'm sorry, know that I still love you.

Signing off,
Your beloved Granddaughter.