On a day like this 1 month ago, my grandma passed away. Well, I can't say for sure that she is in a better place, because according to my believe, she is in hell for all eternity for not believing in God. That's my reality that I know and it's hurting me to know that I couldn't do much when she was alive. oh well, she is gone now and she now haunts my dreams, literally. This blog post is to commemorate her death anniversary for one month.
The reality of heaven and hell for all eternity has hit me within one month and it has made me realise how much I really want my family and friends to be saved. I want to see them in heaven. (As I'm typing this, my niece is somewhere dancing while I play Jai Ho on the mac for her to dance to. Ironically, "Jai Ho" means "long live" in Hindi) I have not much to say now except that I should now help the living and not brood over the dead. And that means taking care of my family and do what a disciple of God should do (preach the good news).
I can't say much about my grandma because I really didn't talk to her during her last days due to a family feud. Details shall not be revealed for the sake of privacy and propriety. Nonetheless, before the family feud, I enjoyed being with my grandma. She was the only grandparent I knew. and yes I really got nothing more constructive to say, and I better sign off now before I get bitchy over my relatives and say or even think like a Christian shouldn't.
Grandma if you can see this, I'm sorry, know that I still love you.
Signing off,
Your beloved Granddaughter.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Friday, December 24, 2010
Christmas isn't Christmas till you happen to know who died to open a pathway to heaven.
Caroling and stuff don't make any sense to me nowadays. People have seemed to have forgotten the true spirit of Christmas. It's not about giving and sharing. It's about Jesus.
Devil, admit it. You have lost the war. Now stop acting like a sore loser. It's Jesus' party. Please don't ruin others party.
The true meaning for Christmas is Jesus.
"For to us a child is born, to us a son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder, and his name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace." ~Isaiah 9:6 ~
Someone said this: He died so that you may live (again). *can't remember who said that*
Anyway, Blessed Christmas to one and all. Take care and God Bless you.
This song is dedicated to everyone on earth and to Jesus and God and the Holy Spirit.
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
The Insanity of Satan and the Sovereignty of God
"Satanic temptation is irrational", therefore those who become tempted become irrational.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Your Humble Servant is commisioned and ready to serve you.
On my 21st Birthday, as I went up for alter call. Isaiah 6 was revealed to me in a different perspective.
I do not wish to talk about the inherent problems that lies with such altar call; all I wish to say is that when one comes before God, one must be ready to be changed. Daddy God ain't an ATM of emotions and blessings, he can be if he wants to, but that might be undermining his sovereignty if he would to just do that everytime we want an emotional/spiritual high. We should always expect a change in our hearts and our minds renewed, and not go back to our old ways.
Having said that, I went up with a heart wanting a change, to see his will and ready to submit, trust and obey. And so I prostrated (nearly, due to lack of space), and imagine the scene of Isaiah being commissioned by God. Words cannot describe my feelings, it was overwhelming. Ultimately what mattered was that I now know that I must be careful with my words, and be ready to serve the Lord, putting his will above my pleasures.
I could go on and on... But I decided not to.
I do not wish to talk about the inherent problems that lies with such altar call; all I wish to say is that when one comes before God, one must be ready to be changed. Daddy God ain't an ATM of emotions and blessings, he can be if he wants to, but that might be undermining his sovereignty if he would to just do that everytime we want an emotional/spiritual high. We should always expect a change in our hearts and our minds renewed, and not go back to our old ways.
Having said that, I went up with a heart wanting a change, to see his will and ready to submit, trust and obey. And so I prostrated (nearly, due to lack of space), and imagine the scene of Isaiah being commissioned by God. Words cannot describe my feelings, it was overwhelming. Ultimately what mattered was that I now know that I must be careful with my words, and be ready to serve the Lord, putting his will above my pleasures.
I could go on and on... But I decided not to.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Playing around with some of the template stuff, changing my outlook
As the title suggests... ... As those who like to regularly stalk my fb, hence my blog as well will know that I added a few interesting things on my blog, such as the share buttons and the rate buttons. Don't get me wrong, it ain't for a ego boost, it's more for playing around, I'll take it down after a while if I see that it cramps my style.
And the changing outlook bit... ... and policies too.
I'm official announcing that I allow certain things that people would not do out here so that u know my stand.
As some would know, I'm a trainee teacher, and students are desperately trying to get my fb and check out what nonsense I can be up to. I'm allowing my students to check out my nonsensical trash talk on fb. Now that I'm not on practicum and will not be teaching that school anymore, I feel that this is the only way I can be contacted personally without being spammed on my hp.
And as for adding strangers, I'll allow strangers to add me. Unless they seem fantasically dubious, I'll add strangers and if they approach me on the fb chat, I'll reply; unless I'm uber busy that is. The reason will be almost the same reason(the real one) as to why I would allow my students to add me. But I will not make it clear here for the fact that I'm a teacher, I will have to be impartial about religion. (Obvious enough?)
In any case, I hope that it will not offend anyone in the process. If there's anyone who will feel offended, please do speak up and I'll try to be more tactful.
And one more thing, I can't believe I'm actually saying this. I can't wait for school to start. I actually miss being a student. :s
And the changing outlook bit... ... and policies too.
I'm official announcing that I allow certain things that people would not do out here so that u know my stand.
As some would know, I'm a trainee teacher, and students are desperately trying to get my fb and check out what nonsense I can be up to. I'm allowing my students to check out my nonsensical trash talk on fb. Now that I'm not on practicum and will not be teaching that school anymore, I feel that this is the only way I can be contacted personally without being spammed on my hp.
And as for adding strangers, I'll allow strangers to add me. Unless they seem fantasically dubious, I'll add strangers and if they approach me on the fb chat, I'll reply; unless I'm uber busy that is. The reason will be almost the same reason(the real one) as to why I would allow my students to add me. But I will not make it clear here for the fact that I'm a teacher, I will have to be impartial about religion. (Obvious enough?)
In any case, I hope that it will not offend anyone in the process. If there's anyone who will feel offended, please do speak up and I'll try to be more tactful.
And one more thing, I can't believe I'm actually saying this. I can't wait for school to start. I actually miss being a student. :s
Monday, July 19, 2010
Worthnoless
NO! I dun ever wanna fall into darkness.
My hands wanna do some destructive work,
I wanna struggle some irresponsible teachers,
some annoying students,
and the whole damn school's facilities
except for the aircon in the classroom.
And I think of myself in a certain derogatory way,
and feel that I'll never be good enough to
excel in anything I do,
get attached and marry a good guy,
to be an awesome person.
NO! Enough is enough!
I should stop my self pity stuff!
Chaos
tis' strange, my thoughts are seemingly in coherence, though it is falling into incoherence, and I dunno why but I just gotta write it down some how.
Streams of consciousness. I wonder how Virginia Woolf did it and made it seem like order in chaos. If only....
tis the times that people should come together to congregate and share their woes to lift them up to God. Not only...
How now brown cow!
There is more to me than this,
cos we were meant to live,
with so much more than this.
Unsettled.
Vacillating from poem to prose
and back to the rows
of poem, without a meter
to follow, and no rhythm nor rhyme,
and can go on and on until I find myself running out of ....
of..... what is that word?
The word I need now?
Energy.
Thou art my Lord, is my shield, my portion and my deliverer.
My joy in thee is my strength,
and I shall offer my other cheek when others slap one side.
And all of my days I lift them up to you,
because Lord I'm tired and I need to rest in your promises.
My hands wanna do some destructive work,
I wanna struggle some irresponsible teachers,
some annoying students,
and the whole damn school's facilities
except for the aircon in the classroom.
And I think of myself in a certain derogatory way,
and feel that I'll never be good enough to
excel in anything I do,
get attached and marry a good guy,
to be an awesome person.
NO! Enough is enough!
I should stop my self pity stuff!
Chaos
tis' strange, my thoughts are seemingly in coherence, though it is falling into incoherence, and I dunno why but I just gotta write it down some how.
Streams of consciousness. I wonder how Virginia Woolf did it and made it seem like order in chaos. If only....
tis the times that people should come together to congregate and share their woes to lift them up to God. Not only...
How now brown cow!
There is more to me than this,
cos we were meant to live,
with so much more than this.
Unsettled.
Vacillating from poem to prose
and back to the rows
of poem, without a meter
to follow, and no rhythm nor rhyme,
and can go on and on until I find myself running out of ....
of..... what is that word?
The word I need now?
Energy.
Thou art my Lord, is my shield, my portion and my deliverer.
My joy in thee is my strength,
and I shall offer my other cheek when others slap one side.
And all of my days I lift them up to you,
because Lord I'm tired and I need to rest in your promises.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Here are you
And
it was so
suddenly
clear to me
what was I
looking for
all this time
There are you
over here
playing games
with my mind
Someone who
could talk to
me
It was you
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