I think I need a therapy pretty soon... So many things have happened recently and I dunno where to start from... ... Before I start my ranting, I have to count my blessings and thank God for the good things in my life, so that I will remember to thank God amidst the mess in my life.
My uni life is filled with good and bad things, I thank God for the new friends I have made in uni most importantly. Especially with the fact that my friend found NIE Christian Fellowship and now I have friends there that I can hold accountable too I guide me along with my life and for younglings like my roomie and I, being with the elder and more mature people both in mentality and spiritually, I truly thank God for guiding me. Also, in hall, I'm happy to find a few people who are Christians and one of them, Zhong Yi,(I must mention this) Student Union Pageant king, is a very devoted Christian and decided to initiate a night time prayer meeting every Monday night. Though I must say I felt quite weird that he wanted to hold it in my room, as I thought about it, it was better; I can imagine the messiness of a boy's room and most importantly, I would feel even more weird in a boy's room. haha... Then comes CCA, I got into the NTU Archery School Team and just recently, after an interview that I was unsure and not confident of, I got into the main comm. I got wat I wanted, the Publications Officer post. On top of it, I met many friends in archery, more like-minded anime fans! and I found a fellow cosplayer! Plus another wannabe cosplayer! haha... ...
Now to the drama which most are anticipating. I'm super pissed at some people as mentioned about last post. Now compare this to wat I'm about to tell u. My relatives r fighting over property. Now that's some drama that I thought would only exist on the tv drama serial. When I came home from school just now, thinking about how I would survive piano lesson the next day, I got a rude shock from my mum...
she told me that my relatives are fighting with my dad over property. For a moment, I thought I just thought I heard something fresh out of a lousy Channel 8 drama serial. Not that all the drama's on Channel 8 is lousy, but some is really too cliche or just plain lousy. So anyway, i was telling my dad, I have a pair of hands, a pair of legs, I'm in NIE now, and will soon become a teacher and I have my own brains. I dun need that money. In fact, we never needed that money. My dad is capable of us supporting as since we were young anyway. God has always blessed our family in one way or another, and my dad acknowledges that fact. The money is becoming dirty. I dun wanna be associated to such a dirty thing... It makes me sick how people can fight with another family member over money. It's infantile and it makes me nauseous. My siblings talked about it before, we foresaw this scenario and we were praying to God that we would never haf to deal with such a thing. I guess I would rather donate the money to charity. If those relatives really want that money so badly, here take it, it's dirtied by ur hands and deeds already. Take it away from my sight. It disgusts me more than the people who have pissed me over the past 18 and come 24th October, 19 years of my insignificant life. I pray that I would forgive my relatives for being as such. I am peeved most at the fact that I was close to them when i was younger. Wat happened then? Was it all an act? Wat in the world or beyond could cos them to turn so ugly in the face of money? Why have all the aunties and uncle that I respected since young turn to become someone whose actions now disgusts me? God please help them find peace in their hearts. They need it more than me... I guess. I pray that all will find the peace in God.
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