Nationalism is Patriotism repackaged for the post-colonial modern context

So no, patriotism is not so passe after all... ...

and that was what I wrote for my lit in-class reflective assignment. It was a surprise in-class reflective assignment. My prof was smiling as he announced it. *faints* Everybody when to the toilet screaming and going "ZOMG!" So anyway, I wrote in my reflective essay that the Great Books and classics are still valid in today's context as they speak about universal truths, SEA regional literature is just stating the universal truths in a different way. Like Patriotism is repackaged in the modern sense and name Nationalism for the post-colonial context.

I dun really care if people agree with my or not, I just feel that the issues in the great classics can never go wrong, and so is the so called less acknowledged SEA regional lit. I mean if I acknowledge it, and the people in this region acknowledge it and the writers are acknowledge, it's all that matters. Message from the texts gotten and people reflect on themselves after reading the story, I think it good to go.

So anyway, speaking of Patriotism, I'm glad that I still can go to a university even though I'm a chinese but I'm in SEA. Oh actually, I'm kinda Peranakan Chinese from my mum's side... Local enough? I think I'm threading on political ground when I write my 10-page language policy comparison report. After reading some history material for background info, I figured that Lee Kwan Yew could have ruled Malaysia if Singapore didn't get kicked out of the the Federation. MM Lee is the bomb that Tunku was afraid of... AKA Lee Kwan Yew pwns the political scene in this region. and I'm glad cos if it wasn't for him, honestly, I could be in the slums and grovelling the ground for my food. So I'm proud to be a Singaporean.

Now now... this reminds me, I shouldn't be too proud... ... Singaporeans got to be humble and remember that we were a mess last time; stop complaining about that old man and his family. If it wasn't for him, u wouldn't even be here critising in English or having a computer to send ur hate mail. So peace. and stop digging in the PRC's, do remember that majority for us here originated from there. The raising dragon will swallow the up. Beware all u Americans. My roomie is a PRC, after the initial attrition, I found that she is an awesome. She allowed me to use the fridge even though I didn't pay for it. Like how cool is that!

So anyway, y m I here typing this.... I'm supposed to be doing my 10-page report! Gotta go! God Bless and peace!

UnSeTTleD

Unsettling as it is, I saw something crazy... My ex-eyecandy seems to be a bit sad and stuff... & it seems as if it's about his relationship... I'm feeling kinda evil here but I'll be truthful and say that to begin with, their relationship seemed like a superficial one. But that aside, I still pray that he will walk closely with the Lord.

Ok so the MOST UNSETTLING THING: is over for now.

Just handed in an assignment tjhat is marked by a serious of mayhems and nervous luaghters... My poor groupmates are like so relieved. and so am I. I was like 5 mins before deadline: DUDE U BETTER STOP NOW AND SEND IT IN TO SAFE ASSIGNMENTS!

15 mins after the deadline: *nervously laughing while walking to the ELL office for hardcopy submission*

So anyway, that's life for now and I thank God that I'm still conscious and still have time to even nyom down my subway in a record timing of 10mins and whisk myself up to lit tutorial and catch 6 hours of sleep.

As I told my friend on fb, this is the uncensored and uncut life of a uni kia. Get them fresh and juicy on fb!

Welcome to life!

Now time to start on my 10 page report on comparing Singapore's and Malaysia's Language policy. Ganbatte to self!

My hopes and dreams just shattered in that instance in the shooting line when I found out my equipment failed on me...

This is the 1st major competition in which I have never won a medal... Not just me, but my teammates, we were all in a panic when we found out my bow limbs split at the socket joints... Really crap man... So pissing! and I feel like I have let my teammates down!

There is a hope that burns within my soul... ...

There is a drive to get that Gold medal plus trophy back burning within my soul too... ...

I was so screwed! I can't believe it happened to me!!!! Like RAWR!!!! WHY GOD? I wanna know why! Why my equipment fail on me during competition?! My world is sinking into an abyss! NO!!!! and I was so embarassed when that happened! All the negetive feelings mixed into one. The worst thing is I lost a battle without fighting it!

*sniffles* ... ... ... ... And those stuck up people... ... They should just stop being so stuck up and encourage fellow archers though we are opponents.

Freak accidents happen... ... This is the ultimate freak accident that happened to me in my whole entire life!

That was the very 1st arrow I shot and the last arrow I shot with that pair of bow limbs. I'll never get cheap stuff ever again for Archery.


NEVER BUY CYBOW POWERFULL LIMBS! LEST IT FAILS AND SPLITS ON YOU DURING COMPETITION!
And God, I still wanna know why it happened... ... :(

In the light of trials and competition, I pray that I will not lose sight of God's actual will for me.

Inklings of Faith: There Is A Hope:
"THERE IS A HOPE"
by Stuart Townend and Mark Edwards
Copyright (c) 2007 Thankyou Music.

There is a hope that burns within my heart,
That gives me strength for ev'ry passing day;
a glimpse of glory now revealed in meager part,
Yet drives all doubt away:
I stand in Christ, with sins forgiv'n;
and Christ in me, the hope of heav'n!
My highest calling and my deepest joy,
to make His will my home.

There is a hope that lifts my weary head,
A consolation strong against despair,
That when the world has plunged me in its deepest pit,
I find the Savior there!
Through present sufferings, future's fear,
He whispers, 'Courage!' in my ear.
For I am safe in everlasting arms,
And they will lead me home.

There is a hope that stands the test of time,
That lifts my eyes beyond the beckoning grave,
To see the matchless beauty of a day divine
When I behold His face!
When sufferings cease and sorrows die,
and every longing satisfied,
then joy unspeakable will flood my soul,
For I am truly home."

I had the weirdest dream I ever had in my entire life thus far

So yeah... this is the documentation of my dream, note that I was in hall napping after my dad fetch me back to hall. Both dreams were almost to real.

The 1st dream was like I woke up and yeah I was in hall, I on my laptop and began to do my work. Then just then my roomie said bye to me and went for lesson, my granny came to visit me in hall, I suspect she was running away from home. I was shocked to find her already in my room. And then, I asked her, y did she do all those crazy things suing my dad over property and say I caused her to fall when she clearly fell down by herself and then now trying to scream for me and always asking where am I, while still blaming me for her fall. She didn't reply, she just looked away... gee... ... then I didn't know what happened next.

Before I knew it, I was in my 2nd dream... like this time, I dreamt that I woke up from the previous dream thinking how creepy it was.(a dream within a dream?!!!!) I was on my parents' bed slowly stirring and thinking something is wrong with this waking. And then I went to my room to put down my blanket and do my bed then I approached the stairs cos I hear tv sounds from downstairs. I saw my mum in front of the tv, my sister's voice from the corner of the house screaming at me saying how early I have woken up and my granny at her usual place where the wheel chair is parked before she pissed off everyone in the house and confined herself to her room before my dad could confine her. I couldn't see my sister, and I could only see my granny's legs but not full body cos the stairs is blocking the full view because I didn't descend the stairs completely. I just turned back and when to the toilet to bathe. And somehow I ended up looking at myself in the mirror and thinking something is wrong then washed my undergarments. Now the freaky thing is that all this seemed so real and clear its stuck in my head as a memory and not in anyway dream like. Then my mum came to me to tell me I have to wash my other undergarments as well and I thought in that dream I heard it before though now when I think about it, I have never heard of it before. I asked my mum what day is it today(in the dream) and before she could reply I saw the calendar was 2008 september I think, and I screamed and said I'm from 2009! What am I doing in 2008?! Then I cooled myself down after my mum run to tell dunno who, and I took my blanket from dunno where and then tried to go back to my parents' bed and laid there like how I was before I woke up. I tried to sleep myself into it, but I couldn't, then I focused my mind that I should be in hall waking now.

I slowly woke up and found myself back in hall... When I woke up I felt creeped out and I realised, I'm in 2010 not 2009. and y on earth did I wake up from one dream to another? I refuse to comtemplate over this further for I'm afraid of it being another prophetic dream, cos most of the dreams that cause me to freak out or cause me to worry are prophetic. Or maybe God is trying to tell me something and I'm too freaked out to listen. God if there is something u need to tell me, can it be in something less freaky?

My God Reigns - Abundant Life Church

My God Reigns
- Matt Hooper & Jock James

(Verse 1)
I have a hope so sure
An anchor for my soul
My peace in the worst of times
I trust in God alone

(Pre Chorus)
Let every voice declare it now

(Chorus)
My God reigns
His love will never fail me
My God reigns – He’s ruling over all
In all my Life
In every situation I know
My God is greater
My God is over all

(Verse 2)
By faith I have believed
And on this truth I stand
No power in life or death
Can take me from His hand

(pre chorus)
Let every voice declare it now

(Chorus 2)
My God reigns
His love will never fail me
My God reigns – He’s ruling over all
In all my Life
In every situation I know
My God is greater

(Coda)
My God is greater, my God is greater
My God is greater, my God is greater
(My God is greater, my God is over all)

(Bridge)
Above all sickness, above all fear
Above every heartache here
In earth and heav’n – My God reigns!
Above all power, above all thrones
The greatest love I’ve ever known
Today, forever, my God reigns!

(Chorus X 2)

Lovely trip to Marina Barrage

It was an awesome time together taking pictures and such, soaking into the wind and the losing the rose on my hairpin and random chat here and there.

Mark, Selwyn, Lizzie, Winnie and I just sat down and about to chill... ...


And it all ended when the announcement "will the car owner of SXXXXXX please move away your car, *we were thinking who was that irresponsible fella arh?" I repeat, will the car owner of of SXXXXXX *Selwyn points to himself and says "that's my car!"* please move away your car. Thank you."

And then we rushed down the stairs and rushed all the way to the car.

And there it goes with an anticlimax ending of our lovely trip to the Marina Barrage.

Classic.