Cover up the putrefaction,
And stop the overflowing wounds, from which blood runs over excessively.
Red is the colour of our blood,
Warm as it is supposed to be.
Red is the colour of our blood,
Bonds of love it represents.
Red is the colour of our blood,
Kinship and ties it represents.
Kinship and ties it represents. Kinship and ties it is
Supposed to represent.
Kinship and ties it represents
No more.
Wars. Fights. Hurt. Death. Wounds. Seperation.
And what not.
Red is the colour of our blood.
Red is the colour of our blood.
No more warmth, bonds, kinship, and ties.
The same blood which runs in us
is now the thing that I despise.
My heart. It bleeds from the sorrow
Of the hurt, and agony
Man inflict upon another
Just for the sake of
Property
and
Money
Greed has overtaken them all.
My heart bleeds for the downfall of
Mankind.
The word itself becoming an irony.
Cover up the putrefaction,
And stop the over flowing wounds, from which blood runs over excessively.
Red is the colour of our blood,
Warm as it is supposed to be.
Red is the colour of our blood,
Bonds of love it represents.
Red is the colour of our blood,
Kin
ship and ties it represents.
Kin
ship and
ties it represents. Kin ship and ties it is
Supposed
to represent.
Kin
ship and
ties it represents
No more.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I dunno which is worse, irresponsible people in a project group or greediness over money.
I think I need a therapy pretty soon... So many things have happened recently and I dunno where to start from... ... Before I start my ranting, I have to count my blessings and thank God for the good things in my life, so that I will remember to thank God amidst the mess in my life.
My uni life is filled with good and bad things, I thank God for the new friends I have made in uni most importantly. Especially with the fact that my friend found NIE Christian Fellowship and now I have friends there that I can hold accountable too I guide me along with my life and for younglings like my roomie and I, being with the elder and more mature people both in mentality and spiritually, I truly thank God for guiding me. Also, in hall, I'm happy to find a few people who are Christians and one of them, Zhong Yi,(I must mention this) Student Union Pageant king, is a very devoted Christian and decided to initiate a night time prayer meeting every Monday night. Though I must say I felt quite weird that he wanted to hold it in my room, as I thought about it, it was better; I can imagine the messiness of a boy's room and most importantly, I would feel even more weird in a boy's room. haha... Then comes CCA, I got into the NTU Archery School Team and just recently, after an interview that I was unsure and not confident of, I got into the main comm. I got wat I wanted, the Publications Officer post. On top of it, I met many friends in archery, more like-minded anime fans! and I found a fellow cosplayer! Plus another wannabe cosplayer! haha... ...
Now to the drama which most are anticipating. I'm super pissed at some people as mentioned about last post. Now compare this to wat I'm about to tell u. My relatives r fighting over property. Now that's some drama that I thought would only exist on the tv drama serial. When I came home from school just now, thinking about how I would survive piano lesson the next day, I got a rude shock from my mum...
she told me that my relatives are fighting with my dad over property. For a moment, I thought I just thought I heard something fresh out of a lousy Channel 8 drama serial. Not that all the drama's on Channel 8 is lousy, but some is really too cliche or just plain lousy. So anyway, i was telling my dad, I have a pair of hands, a pair of legs, I'm in NIE now, and will soon become a teacher and I have my own brains. I dun need that money. In fact, we never needed that money. My dad is capable of us supporting as since we were young anyway. God has always blessed our family in one way or another, and my dad acknowledges that fact. The money is becoming dirty. I dun wanna be associated to such a dirty thing... It makes me sick how people can fight with another family member over money. It's infantile and it makes me nauseous. My siblings talked about it before, we foresaw this scenario and we were praying to God that we would never haf to deal with such a thing. I guess I would rather donate the money to charity. If those relatives really want that money so badly, here take it, it's dirtied by ur hands and deeds already. Take it away from my sight. It disgusts me more than the people who have pissed me over the past 18 and come 24th October, 19 years of my insignificant life. I pray that I would forgive my relatives for being as such. I am peeved most at the fact that I was close to them when i was younger. Wat happened then? Was it all an act? Wat in the world or beyond could cos them to turn so ugly in the face of money? Why have all the aunties and uncle that I respected since young turn to become someone whose actions now disgusts me? God please help them find peace in their hearts. They need it more than me... I guess. I pray that all will find the peace in God.
My uni life is filled with good and bad things, I thank God for the new friends I have made in uni most importantly. Especially with the fact that my friend found NIE Christian Fellowship and now I have friends there that I can hold accountable too I guide me along with my life and for younglings like my roomie and I, being with the elder and more mature people both in mentality and spiritually, I truly thank God for guiding me. Also, in hall, I'm happy to find a few people who are Christians and one of them, Zhong Yi,(I must mention this) Student Union Pageant king, is a very devoted Christian and decided to initiate a night time prayer meeting every Monday night. Though I must say I felt quite weird that he wanted to hold it in my room, as I thought about it, it was better; I can imagine the messiness of a boy's room and most importantly, I would feel even more weird in a boy's room. haha... Then comes CCA, I got into the NTU Archery School Team and just recently, after an interview that I was unsure and not confident of, I got into the main comm. I got wat I wanted, the Publications Officer post. On top of it, I met many friends in archery, more like-minded anime fans! and I found a fellow cosplayer! Plus another wannabe cosplayer! haha... ...
Now to the drama which most are anticipating. I'm super pissed at some people as mentioned about last post. Now compare this to wat I'm about to tell u. My relatives r fighting over property. Now that's some drama that I thought would only exist on the tv drama serial. When I came home from school just now, thinking about how I would survive piano lesson the next day, I got a rude shock from my mum...
she told me that my relatives are fighting with my dad over property. For a moment, I thought I just thought I heard something fresh out of a lousy Channel 8 drama serial. Not that all the drama's on Channel 8 is lousy, but some is really too cliche or just plain lousy. So anyway, i was telling my dad, I have a pair of hands, a pair of legs, I'm in NIE now, and will soon become a teacher and I have my own brains. I dun need that money. In fact, we never needed that money. My dad is capable of us supporting as since we were young anyway. God has always blessed our family in one way or another, and my dad acknowledges that fact. The money is becoming dirty. I dun wanna be associated to such a dirty thing... It makes me sick how people can fight with another family member over money. It's infantile and it makes me nauseous. My siblings talked about it before, we foresaw this scenario and we were praying to God that we would never haf to deal with such a thing. I guess I would rather donate the money to charity. If those relatives really want that money so badly, here take it, it's dirtied by ur hands and deeds already. Take it away from my sight. It disgusts me more than the people who have pissed me over the past 18 and come 24th October, 19 years of my insignificant life. I pray that I would forgive my relatives for being as such. I am peeved most at the fact that I was close to them when i was younger. Wat happened then? Was it all an act? Wat in the world or beyond could cos them to turn so ugly in the face of money? Why have all the aunties and uncle that I respected since young turn to become someone whose actions now disgusts me? God please help them find peace in their hearts. They need it more than me... I guess. I pray that all will find the peace in God.
Friday, October 3, 2008
My hair is lessening... ...
Just a few moments ago, my dad asked me wat I was doing. I told him I'm trying to rush up my assignment and stay wake at the same time.He replied that I should tie my hair up to the ceiling. I was like no thanks dad my hair is already falling off from all the stress I'm accumulating. *I'll leave it to ur imagination if it was me pulling my hair due to stress or if it was because my hair is really dropping due to the stress*
I WANNA COMPLAIN!
Some people are just tooooo much! I mean it's like dude! u r part of the project aren't u, if u had something to say previously please say it before it is finalise. That's 1. 2, dude, You r not even bothering to expand or improvise on the part YOU are presenting! 3, comon dude, u meant to say to didn't really collect info and data right, that's y u can't come up with the referencing and bibliography for me to put up on slides. 4, Oh perrleese sweetie! Da world dun revolve around u n ur whims. I stayed up all the way to 4 to do the presentation slides for my other group despite my gastric, bad cough and drowsiness from medicine. I got complain, but did I inconvenience anybody? Did I contribute? 5, Oh DUDE! U have done it this time! Nice one! U didn't turn up for meetings and u didn't even tell us! and u insisted that u wanted that timing! That was really a nice one... Somebody was waiting for u for 2 hrs, called u and smsed u. But u didn't reply sms, call back or contact any of us. U would also last min say that u r not free to come for meetings! Nice one!
1, 2, 3, 4, 5... etc... If I continue, I could go now forever, but I decided to not be a lil' B**** and just stop there. Disclaimer here, the 'YOU' in here is not just 1 person, it is a compilation of irresponsible people that I know into one character for purposes that will ensure that people dun try to go find out who the person(s) are unless the characteristic is really prominent. *or maybe it's for my own literary purposes...* Oh well, I dun understand how people can dun care about their project work at all. I mean it's like that topic is urs, ur parts it's ur slide, ur marks... but u r not only not bothering, u r dragging all of our marks down with u cos u didn't give ur own input and that makes the presentation looks horrible. okok... I shouldn't be too judgemental, I admit that I was such an a** to make such a big deal out of the fact that u look like u got nothing to do or did nothing and I'm doing all the slides/report. If I'm such as ass, trying to do so much things, hands up anyone who would like to share my burden or even better swap places with me.
I must acknowledge the effort of a few people here. *can't say names either for fear of connection. SORRY!* Thanks for being responsible and trying to care for not just ur own marks but my health. u have my sincere gratitude. Without u people, I would have already fainted.I really mean it, I nearly fainted today. Back to back, oh no wait, overlapping timeslots, no wait, similiar timeslots for 2 project-based modules. I nearly fainted from hunger and stress... i really could think during the meetings, especially the 2 meeting. My 3rd meeting didn't materialise. So my 4th meeting considered as my 3rd meeting. I would also like the thank those people who have been listening to my rants. THANKS FOR UR KINDNESS AND UNDERSTANDING!
I would like to end of with morals of the story:
- I SHOULD HAVE JUST GONE WITH MY FRIEND AND ARCHERY SENIOR TO THE GYM.
- At the very least, I know I have done my best, so if there's anything wrong, I know it isn't my fault.
- I must always thank the people who have been there for me.*listening to my rants*
- I know that at the end of all this, I'm a stronger person.
My roomie has a line of lyrics as her messenger personnel message. It's the song 'Stronger' by Kenya West. "That that that don't kill me, can only make me stronger."
I was thinking of that Britney Spears song 'Stronger' and Christina's 'Fighter' also.
B**** Time is now over.
I WANNA COMPLAIN!
Some people are just tooooo much! I mean it's like dude! u r part of the project aren't u, if u had something to say previously please say it before it is finalise. That's 1. 2, dude, You r not even bothering to expand or improvise on the part YOU are presenting! 3, comon dude, u meant to say to didn't really collect info and data right, that's y u can't come up with the referencing and bibliography for me to put up on slides. 4, Oh perrleese sweetie! Da world dun revolve around u n ur whims. I stayed up all the way to 4 to do the presentation slides for my other group despite my gastric, bad cough and drowsiness from medicine. I got complain, but did I inconvenience anybody? Did I contribute? 5, Oh DUDE! U have done it this time! Nice one! U didn't turn up for meetings and u didn't even tell us! and u insisted that u wanted that timing! That was really a nice one... Somebody was waiting for u for 2 hrs, called u and smsed u. But u didn't reply sms, call back or contact any of us. U would also last min say that u r not free to come for meetings! Nice one!
1, 2, 3, 4, 5... etc... If I continue, I could go now forever, but I decided to not be a lil' B**** and just stop there. Disclaimer here, the 'YOU' in here is not just 1 person, it is a compilation of irresponsible people that I know into one character for purposes that will ensure that people dun try to go find out who the person(s) are unless the characteristic is really prominent. *or maybe it's for my own literary purposes...* Oh well, I dun understand how people can dun care about their project work at all. I mean it's like that topic is urs, ur parts it's ur slide, ur marks... but u r not only not bothering, u r dragging all of our marks down with u cos u didn't give ur own input and that makes the presentation looks horrible. okok... I shouldn't be too judgemental, I admit that I was such an a** to make such a big deal out of the fact that u look like u got nothing to do or did nothing and I'm doing all the slides/report. If I'm such as ass, trying to do so much things, hands up anyone who would like to share my burden or even better swap places with me.
I must acknowledge the effort of a few people here. *can't say names either for fear of connection. SORRY!* Thanks for being responsible and trying to care for not just ur own marks but my health. u have my sincere gratitude. Without u people, I would have already fainted.I really mean it, I nearly fainted today. Back to back, oh no wait, overlapping timeslots, no wait, similiar timeslots for 2 project-based modules. I nearly fainted from hunger and stress... i really could think during the meetings, especially the 2 meeting. My 3rd meeting didn't materialise. So my 4th meeting considered as my 3rd meeting. I would also like the thank those people who have been listening to my rants. THANKS FOR UR KINDNESS AND UNDERSTANDING!
I would like to end of with morals of the story:
- I SHOULD HAVE JUST GONE WITH MY FRIEND AND ARCHERY SENIOR TO THE GYM.
- At the very least, I know I have done my best, so if there's anything wrong, I know it isn't my fault.
- I must always thank the people who have been there for me.*listening to my rants*
- I know that at the end of all this, I'm a stronger person.
My roomie has a line of lyrics as her messenger personnel message. It's the song 'Stronger' by Kenya West. "That that that don't kill me, can only make me stronger."
I was thinking of that Britney Spears song 'Stronger' and Christina's 'Fighter' also.
B**** Time is now over.
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